Who's to blame?

I'm having a good day. I have continued to refuse my psychiatric meds. I am being honest with myself and I don't need medication. What I need is a made-up mind and to use self-discipline. I also harbor a lot of anger, and I believe that some of that anger died on December 25, 2006, the day my father, James Brown, died.

I am an extremely volatile individual and I think I was hugely impacted by intentional neglect that I suffered from my father's refusal to acknowledge me. I am not blaming my father, never that, but on some level, I believe the man I had become was framed by the intentional absence of a biological father in my life.

I have received numerous letters from an ex of mine and she rails on me and accuses me of being a cry-baby and refusing to be accountable for my own actions. So I want to set the record straight: I am responsible for my own actions; however, a lot of things factor into how one perceives himself and the world. I believe my past, my rearing etc. played a major role in why I chose to behave as I have.