Depression or reality?

I am at a point now where I feel like I have never truly experienced a conventional, stable, ordered life. I try not to let this realization wash over me because I feel empty and like I have missed out on quite a lot.

When these thoughts become overwhelming, I often wish I could pass on in my sleep and be set free. I am so sad when I reflect and realize that throughout my life that I have only known overwhelming depression and emptiness and then sadness sets in.

I am not wallowing in self-pity; I am aware of this now and I feel blessed that I know there are different ways that I can overcome this. It'll probably be therapy, support groups and psychotropic meds and it is both intimidating and empowering to know there are things that are ultimately within my control and if I am genuine in my pursuit I can facilitate change in my life.

Thanks to the Powers That Be!

Everyone know that Michael/Bakari loves receiving mail. So feel free to write to him @:

Mike Brown, #P69851
DVI - PO Box 600 - K217
Tracy, CA 95378-0600

He could be relocated any day, so as soon as that happens I will post his new address. Thanks for your support.